maybe i should go back to ras05.blogspot.com!
Lj, can't really adapt to it.. bah. well, i'll see how!

suck balls!

( i would try not to emo so much, okay? )

MY BIRTHDAY: haha! like 5 days ago, i totally forgot that i am already 17! Maybe 17 isnt such a big thing but wait till i'm 18! woooweeee. okay whatever. I HAD THE BEST BDAE CELEBRATION EVER EVER this year (= LIKE EVER! was beyond my wildest dreamz but hell yeah it happened. i hope my mind doesnt shut down or smth, because i would want to remember it foreva! like no kidding! thanks to gerri the smelly belly, simon, joel, norfi, and my mama who made it possible. wahahaha.

POST BDAE CELEBRATION (19/1): Yet another day of greatness. This was the day i had to pinch myself to ensure that i really wasnt dreaming, and i really wasnt! Wenta Bugis Haji Lane to Shisha!! woooooweeee. the company was PERFECT. didnt shisha that much though. damn wasted! urghhhhh. Made our way to timah to poooool! (= poolz. i'm getting betta i must say!
brought 100 bucks and came back w 30.. wahahaha!

SCHOOL: Been skipping school lately and stuff. A couple of times. haha. yeah i know, O level year, shldnt be doing all this shit. hahaa. Well, it was fun while it lasted! Well, the pressure and all the stress is yet to come! We're like having intensive POA lessons man. oh well. study study study. 11 pts 11 pts for R4!! HAHA. for real!!!!!
HAHA, screw English man! gotten a B3 for myself and contented with it! gotta attain at least an A2 for the rest of my subjects, including malay! woah. woah! nvm. everything's gonna be fine if u don't give up and keep trying! gotta work hard. (=

Hmmm. AES band gonna join the NBC in July. I'd probably join CJ Alumni for NBC too. haha! Hopefully things go fine... Meanwhile, i gotta find smth to do to keep myself occupied and to not allow my mind to wander because if it does, it wouldnt stop, and all i think about is you. )= i always have, only now, it hurts.

I just feel that we are in the same room
But living two worlds apart
And it's causing too much pain

- NLT - She said, i said(time to let go)
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i seriously have no idea who the hell is reading my blog man. comon give me some comments! it'll be fun. haha. School is fine thank god. my subject teachers are mostly awesome! no more of switching of classes shit. but of course, i dread mother tongue the most, i swear! i've yet to finish the damn paper! struggling man. but hey! i'm gonna read the damn Berita Harian on a daily basis man! believe it or not. gotta endure for at least 4 months!! insyaallah! i'm able to make it roooooooooar!!(= i'm aiming for a B3. Now, ive got to pretend i really love the subject. urghhhhzzz.

in case daddy asks me what to buy for my bdae.
it'll be a bebe wallet! woooooo.
lets just hope he asks. heh (=

and shit! i think im gonna start to emo again! why oh why!! whyyyyyyyyy~
I WANNA KNOW HOW YOU FEEL!

the past month has been great! Holidays are ending man! I dont wish for school to start.... Wtf, see no motivation! Well, maybe when im in the classroom. urghhhhhh. i dont plan to buy the new uni. who cares. no one told me anything. nobody gave us the booklist. even upon request, its still not given. fine then.

it'll be a new year in 4 hours, and im here stuck in my bed, instead of being there at town w gang for countdown! I'm having a fever! and school is in 1 day. AHHHH. i dontwant to be sick on the first day of school. nonononono.
and this year, is the only year that i didnt get new shoes or bag or wallet or wdv. awesome! not. haha.
despite the fever, i slept at 7 in the morning just now till bout 1. Was on the phone with a troubled person that needed my help. apparently, he didnt get much. Because it was nonsense for 4 hours. haha. well, i liked it. and i needa catch up the hours of nt slping!

oh! wenta DXO on the 29th! As usual it was fun fun fun! more and more familiar faces around. kinda scary and all. gotta stop till my Os are over! woooo. looooking forward to Melbourne nx yr baby!

)=




HAPPY NEW YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAR!

the past month has been great! Holidays are ending man! I dont wish for school to start.... Wtf, see no motivation! Well, maybe when im in the classroom. urghhhhhh. i dont plan to but the new uni. who cares. no one told me anything. nobody gave us the booklist. even upon request, its still not given. fine then.

it'll be a new year in 4 hours, and im here stuck in my bed, instead of being

damn! i cant resize the first pic man. so its damn big.
but anyway, finally! some pics to add life to this alr boring blog.
ytd wenta RP for CJ&AJ's Christmas concert! awesome i must say. Esp the last song where everyone practically danced! so entertaining.
after which, wanted to have supper w jared, elliot and frends, but me and gerri settled down for western food at KSL! Crazy big chicken chop yo.
Gerri and I were damn high.. so we had a hard time eating.. kept laughing. haha.

MY CAT GAVE BIRTH TO 3 KITTENS! i cant identify whether they're female or male. But anyway, they are damn soft with already sharp nails! and currently they're under my bed slping since ytd afternoon.
I slept at 4:30am with my male cat beside me and female cat and kittens under my bed.
i have yet to take their pics!

gym later! (=

ah! so sad i cant make it to DXO tonight!
long day tml and all. HAIS.
roaaaaarrr.


let's escape into the music deejay let it play!

i'm exhausted yo! had school from 9am till 8pm yooyoyoy! crazy or crazy?
before that wenta Rouge. didnt want to go in at first all.. well. did anyway. it wasnt too good! urghhhhh. but well, i had fun! i think. couple of cute guys here and there. haha
got home at 4 and slept till 8. thank god i was able to keep myself awake and all. if nt it wld be torturous! o.o

well. it'll be school still nx yr. i'm so nt looking forward to it. i think.
wellll, wdv it iS! i gotta score for the damn Os!
i heard the class's really small.... well, gd then.

shit la! ive gt photos to upload but i just dont know how to! zzzzzzz.

well, slamat hari raya haji.
merry xmas!

countdown yaw!

AHHHH. (ya, talking to myself as usual)
let's see! life's been pretty okay lately. nth exciting. Except for, today was shopping w ms gerri (and she appears online now) Exciting to see Mango on SALEEEEE. but, let's just say, it wasnt too good a sale. nah nah.
After gerri got her butt to work, i wandered alone for awhile and saw a few things that caught my eyes! after awhile, i experienced back pain, for i have no idea what reason! it sucked so bad, so i made my way home.
( i think i have back problems. Now, still. and i'm alr in my bed! )

im looking forward to.....

KL prob on sat&sun ( dont think so alr. zz )
Town w gerri on Sun (yay!)
cycle&bbq on Mon (2nd time cycling!)
RESULTS ON TUES!!!!!!!!!!!!! (whee?)
after tt, paramour@rouge (whooo partay!)
Hari Raya Haji on the 20th.
Band on 21st?
Christmas gifts and invites! yay
Countdown to New year!
17 jan!!!! i'll be 17!

and 3rd jan would be school. (prob?)
wah, sibeiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii sian!


anyway, you got that good stuff, good love, one that i cant get enough!

hhaha! i feel flattered! Someone has been observing me in school... Said real nice things to me and all. Hmmm. Long since i've had long conversations..
My cat is currently on the sofa while i'm on the floor yo! Lucky cat.
Simon and Jo at ksl now! Urgh... How I wish, my dad wasnt so strict..
Comon ! its the damn holidays!holidays yoo!!! not forgetting i have school nx yr!
damn.... school. urgh.
So the point is yes, let me enjoy my damn life for now yo!
Now wait, since when do i have this kind of attitude?
oh well. shit la. i've got no photos to blog... not that i know how to.... but i'll try.
here goes.
...... er no i cant do it. hahas.
dxo was a blast yo! love it.
bloody hell, its been raining and i cant freaking jog! Everytime i jog, i'll always bump into this group of guys. they jog too! awesome!
But anyway, i really prefer to jog alone.... duno why too.. oh well.

time for some B&Js! loves!

i dont know man! life sucks sometimes. wtf wtf! Been sucky lately! I duno man?! issit suppose to be like this? I think for a 16 yr old, i really have too much problems man. wtf! So much for enjoying my teenage life. WOW. Problems can wait till im 20 or smth yo. wah serious la damn sad man. Especially coming for the ones i respect and love the most la. Happened a lot of times alr, and really,, i shld be immuned or smth by now, but noooooo. ahh. fuckzxzx.
thanks a lot yo. thanks. cb!

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banner painting sibei stress. duno what to say.
thx again

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i seriously duno whats your motive? wtf man? wah. another prob. thanks to u too.
maybe i shld give up on everything rite now man. sucks so bad.
urghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! go be a player somewhere else yo.

! fuck it.

this week has been crazy! In a good way i guess? or maybe not. oh well. I think my holidays have just started. cause it was band band band the past month. and just a lil bit this month.
KSL at Bangkit almost everyday with Joel and Simon at night. Talked nonsense and just catch up with each other. The other day went over to barracks to get jo's pay. but to no avail. So we decided to go B&Js for ice cream! awesomeeeeeeeeeee! good place to chill! after which made our way to Cine to get simon's nano repaired. but the cost is as good as buying a new one. so yeah. Yesterday Jo only called me out to KSL to eat. but no, he dragged me to Bukit Batok to drink w e rest. He agreed to buy me a cap, so yeah i went. =D Wenta fran's house to wake him up. stupid guy. haha. So we sat under his block and drink and had some chips! Quite dumb huh? yeah i was wondering why too. anyway, i didnt think we made lots of noise, but suddenly the police came. ( thats the time when i heart dropped and died ) and said they received complains. Simon was half drunk, oh my. Lucky thing was they let us off, so went up to fran's house and slacked till 4am.. dammit. so much for 11pm huh jo! haha. Simon vomitted at fran's SINK instead of the TOILET BOWL. smart ass. they had a fun time cleaning. Bloody disgusting! roar! YX spilled vodka, had a fun time cleaning too. got our asses off and cabbed back at 4am. Later at 12, met them at Batok to play bowling woooo hooooo. and off to timah. zzz.

Been joggin lately. Today was mad yo. I practically got mad at almost everything! (after i got home from timah tt is ) I didnt know why either. I feel crazy today. serious. anyway, jogged around the neighbourhood and suddenly i saw my mom sitting on the stairs. Wanted to hide from her, but oh well, didnt. I really wanted to be alone at that time.. Music was blasting into my ears and i almost got banged by a bus. argh. So since i've got some money w me and i was craving for honeydew sago, i sprinted to plaza ( i cant sprint for nuts) and walked straight to sweetalk. the aunty fking pissed me off!

me: are u open?
aunty 1: ...tea. ....tea. .... tea. *she was fking mumbling and cleaning the fking table.
me: sorry, what?
aunty 1: *TSK* milk tea. ...tea... tea..
me: WHAT?!
she called another aunty to talk to me.
aunty 2 : Yes. Right now we only have milk tea, ice tea. and green tea.
me: Oh. okay. nvm then thanks.
me to aunty 1: Excuse me. What's you problem? I asked you nicely and you give me a shit answer.
She looked at me and turned and continued cleaning. i think she'll be cleanin her whole damn life. zz. fkin pissed me off man.
I put my earpiece back on and ransom letter was playing. HOW GREAT. awesome timing.

argh!!!!!!!!!
well, i guess my chocolate chop cookie dough is the only one tt can cheer me up.
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

what have i done? you seem to move on easy.

woooolalala.
life's been pretty boring lately....... like seriously. *tt bimbo tone.

after concert i felt totally lost. No where to turn to. It has always been the band room.
god, i miss the smell. haha. Not to mention, my horn. sigh.
Can't wait to produce good music soon! sooooooooon.

Attempt to find a job, didnt go so well either. They at least want 3 months of commitment. 3 mths my arse. zz.
Gerri is having a helluva time at Sentosa, correct? hahahahas.

Results will be out soooon, soooo looking forward to it.. NOT.
stupid stupid stupid. school nx yr is gonna be such a drag. draaagggggg.

let's see, i'm gonna be 17 soon! yayyyyy... a year older. can u imagine the excitement! yeah me too.

its been 3 days since i've been wanting to jog! but mum never fail to NOT wake me up. irritating ah!! roar. oh well..... tml then!

Alrightos. this is obviously going nowhere.. well. thats that.


BoW WoW is insanely hot!
and norfi only says " he is okay la."
how is that possible?

i have yet to go to Night Safari, Town, airport later.. sian, long bus ride. urgh., errrr.. shopping! more shopping, and ya, thats all.

hi.an update. bye

roarrrrr!
okay. the blog's obviously dead.
whatever.

movie marathon recently!
watched Music & Lyrics ytd nite alone. Incredible incredible!! shed some tears. hahha
300 & storm the yard today w dale and gerri @ my crib! awesome man
300 was awesomely awesome! top in my list now!

errrrrrrr. carvinal was sucky, but there were Gerri, Damian, Dale to crap w.
dunk dunk dunk ppl.

i got my hair curled 2 weeks ago!
i noe, i did that 6 months ago too.
but i got bigger curls! maybe nt exactly. nabei! the aunty cheat me. zz.

aiya. so not looking forward to school next year. boring ppl everywhere... same old canteen.
urghh. dumb lessons.

Sat wenta CJC tune in. AWESOME LA. love the ppl. haha

alrite. i shall disturb ppl now.

pics are huge i know. oh well. too lazy to resize! screw it.
had a hell of a time today at Sakae after a month or so of anticipation!
finally we had the time to meet. and as usual. the place was filled with our laughter. nonsensical things that we do. haha.

gary: " cute ah your egg, i mean cat. "
tsktsk, gary.

anyway, the song below, its not over by secondhand serenade, is the full version! I dont know how either, when it was a 30second preview the other time. Enjoy while it lasts!

i just like the words. not the song though.. oh wellllll. engjoy.




And I thought it would be funny to leave you hanging in suspense
Then I'd run over to your house and I'd scale the chainlink fence
That borders your back yard and then I'd climb through your window
And I'd whisper that I love you as you fall out of your clothes
And we'd lay there in the darkness like this dream of you I had
Where we captured all the fireflies and knew what time we had
Could be counted on our fingertips and that almost made you cry
But you let me hold you tightly as we said all our goodbyes
May I say I loved you more
And it must of been and hour that I clutched you in my arms
And I must have said the right things because you instantly felt warm
And you heard my heart stop beating but you wanted not to cry
As your sympathetic whispers told a tale of bad goodbyes
You swore you heard me laughing and I swore I saw you smile
As the time we've spent together was meant to last us quite a while
As I take this piece of you with me I'll carry to my grave
And knowing that for someone you're an angel sent to save
(Keep Breathing my angel, if you go down I go with you)
May I saw I loved you more
So let's drink to memories we shared
Down one for all the hopes and cares
Here's too for being unaware that you're gone
Because before too long you'll be a memory







ENG Os TML!!!!!
$%*)#@*$)(@#%@#$.

my mind is too caught up.
i think too much! god dammit. everytime i stare blankly at smth, my mind isnt blank at all, its running wild.
and screw it, it is always the same fking thing.
( oh why am i getting so worked up? )

i don't know.
you just make me smile!


THIS WEEK.
was english lesson from mon to fri. morning to afternoon. plus a couple of band practices.
wasn't too bad. hope i do well for Eng Os on Monday!
argumentative argumentative argumentative. o.o
seriously, i'm gonna miss all my express friends when they're all gone next year )=
i spent most of my sec school life with them. oh well...
part and parcel of life. urgh. screw it all.

multiply acc anyone?!
pinky_lela@hotmail.com

My bad. Didnt know the song below is only a 30second preview. Ah, heck. Get the full song on YouTube or smth alright. Its really nice. get it get it gogogo!

Got my ass to school to collect a thick stack of English Papers. From now till 29th, it will be 1 Compo, 1 Compre, 1 Functional Writing a day. A DAY! A freaking DAY! yeah, u get the point. Oh well. hafta endure....... only 10 more days. Which isnt enought for me to get at least B3!! Ah!
And yes, I am starting all that in about.... now. yeah now.



or not.
.
.
Going through another year of MT lessons, just thinking of it, simply sucks. urgh.
.
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okay now.
=B
shitzxzx! i've got no foolscap paper.
cheeseballs.